Alot going through my mind

Too much going through my heart.
Pain without gain
Is this a fresh start?
My calendar collapsed
Time is not the same
Analytical scrutiny
soul searching for blame
Slow horizons in sight
Insomnia throughout the night
searching for an elusive moon
distance is anguish
alone in my room
In a hostile mind
I've got to think strong
breathe postive
and
seek ancestors